I saw you around finally
you really looked like shit
More than normal
Actually by quite a bit

your friends told me
When I was around you
you acted different
A little less cruel
They’d see you smiling
you’d even giggle too

I saw you with her in the lot
The girl who stole your heart
Before we’d even stopped
you were walking so far apart
Deadpan. Not even touching.
Didn’t open the door for her or even stop

A few of them waited a bit
Before telling me
you were always a wet blanket
you ruined all my fun
Getting mad over nothing
Staying inside to smoke
Wasting Syracuse’s sun

Through the grapevine
Little whispers in the break room
Asking my sister if you’re okay
Pointing out your patterns
How all your relationships
Crystallize and shatter this way

The more I think about it
The more I hear about you
Acting like shit
Looking like shit
you were always only worth
What value I gave you

It was always too much
But now that its none
I am actually living
Enjoying being young

5.23 Oakwood Cemetery